The song is inspirational.. and there was a distinct moment when I specifically remember the sentiment " Be Still my child... fore I am here with you".... but right now, it is becoming more difficult to be still.

My mind is racing a thousand miles and a hour, but I'm not really getting anything accomplished.
Three major categories are home, friends, and life. The problems are vast, and I am trying as hard as I can to continue treading water.

HOME= bad. Summary, Cody seems more depressed than ever. My mom is addicted to the computer and chatting.. having people from internet visit and racking up international calls on her phone bill... sounds like she may lose her job.. actually so would my grandparents if the club closes because they just busted for illegal slot machines again.. my brother said my mom is talking to some guy who thinks he is a warlock and is trying to learn spells through the Wiccan religion and what not... so my mom is losing her mind, drinking up a storm, and leaving my brother to do all the cooking and housework essentiallly... and he is cracking and failing classes and what not...

Friends.... well, yeah I don't get this concept and I don't want to go there.

Life... health = not good.. im so out of shape.. my grades aren't great... thinks are crashing...


But I'm going to be still...

I haven't wrote in this for awhile... now, I'm writing... why? well there is a lot to update on.. and I'd love to do so.. but right now, I am pissed. For lack of better words, yes, I am pissed off. At what? Life in general.

So, when I actually pull things back together... I'll be back to do a real update. God always uses these moments for good... so this should prove to be an interesting time period.

" All that I have
I lay before
With my pride on the floor
Cause to you less is more"

Anticipating Lent, I have decided to fast some things this time around...
I can't do an all out fast, and I think that just giving up one thing isn't enough...
so, here is the list of things I am giving up- either because I'm border line addicted or they are just really bad habits.

potatoes in any form
pasta
adding extra cheese to anything (if it already has cheese, that's fine, but I always seem to add cheese)
pop
juice
tea
coffee
chocolate/cookies/sweets/muffins
chips
ice cream
pizza
buying stuff from vending machines
talking about people. (its not that i even do it in a bad way... I just happen to talk a lot and mention a lot of people in the process... normally revealing more than I intend to or more than I should.. not in a im revealing your secrets way, but in a general I talk too much way)
minimum talking in hints and riddles, overcompensating, complaining, talking about myself, swearing.

Let's see if I can do this...

" I pour out myself, before you were Lord
I hold nothing back, 'cause to you less is more
And may these words on my heart on my lips,
Somehow mean so much more than this"

"All the small things
True care truth brings"

It's really easy to loose track of all the small things in life.. when in reality, the small things are some of the most precious and valuable things that we encounter. Laughter, phone calls from friends, a simple hello, a sunny day... the little things that bring a smile to someone's face. The small things, however, can also be some of the most painful things in life as well. One moment can haunt a person forever and one missing element is someone's life can leave them feeling shallow and empty. Without question, the small things are powerful things in life...

The true care truth brings... Truth with a capital T... the truth of God's grace and faithfulness brings true care. That is incredible... and it is awesome to see how all the small things add up to form the larger picture.. the plan that God has for each one of us...

So here's to the small things- the good and the bad- that make us who we are... =]